Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Relove

I am dying to see my family. I am not merely missing the parents and the siblings. I long to be with them. Even Kamal's presence failed to soothe the longing.

When the longing creeps, it is best to get back to myself. A personal space where I could be alone. As the longing creeps when I am down. It would weave itself into a cocoon that protects me from being hurt. So protective, I would be inclined to think that the only unpretentious people are my family members. That is scary, I know, because reclusiveness is not me.

I am calmest when I am alone. The longing will be gone. The protectiveness, too. Nevertheless, being alone only allows me to properly breathe. It has not inspired me to love. How do I love again?

Please do not preach to me about love though. I am not as faithful as I thought I was.
Please let me think loudly albeit how wrong it could be.
It is crucial for you to know that I might not be as faithful, but I have not lost my faith.
More importantly, please do not judge me for I need support, not judgment.

4 comments:

  1. It's unusual to see you crumble but I'm glad you do (and share with your chums). At least, you get rid of the negativity from your system.

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  2. Cookies crumbs on ice cream! That's what I am now :)

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  3. chech

    we do

    need to be

    pretentious sumtimes.

    dohappilygiveyourselfabreak.

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  4. Jaja,

    I talked to my parents and they gave the most sound advices, in the most approriate manner.

    I just have to be ULTRA positive (like Pooh) :)

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